Not worth his Love

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~ Relationship ~
As much as I'm failing in my daily life. I'm failing in my relationship as well.

I just deal with breakup these past few days. I love him, Ichwan Chaerul Nahar. A lot. And he is not from here. He's Indonesian. We broke up over the reason my mom.

Yeah

Because my mom keep putting burden over my shoulder not to be like my sister, don't repeat the same mistakes like her. Just because she's a divorcee.

Since that my mom become over protective since I'm not the only one left in my family who isn't married yet. But this is about my love life. I love him. I'd do anything for him. But.. He doesn't want me anymore. I don't know how could he did this to me. He forget all his promises to me. Not to leave me.

I told him I will keep loving him as much as I can even though it hurts me. Missing him is killing me.

I will kept my heart from anyone. As I'm picking up every broken pieces of my heart I'm making promises not to fall for anyone anymore. It hurts

This last one hurt me the most. Like I'm dying.

I love him.
But, he left me.

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Before I held you, I didn’t know
That the world I was in
Was this bright

I reached you with a small breath of life
It’s a love that called out to me fearlessly
I liked it so much

Watching over you, my heart fluttering
Even when I was ridiculously jealous
All of those ordinary moments

In the dark eternity
In that long wait
Like sunshine, you fell down to me

Before I let go of you, I didn’t know
That the world I am in
Was this lonely

Pretty flowers bloomed and withered here
The season of you will never come again
I started to become greedy
I wanted to live with you, grow old with you
Hold your wrinkled hands
And say how warm my life was

It was just one blessing
After that short encounter
You cried like the rain
I wanted to be happy for once
But that made you cry

Forget everything and move on
Because I will go to you
When your breath calls out to me again

I won’t ever forget
Watching over you, my heart fluttering
Even when I was ridiculously jealous
All of those moments that you gave to me

Some day, we’ll meet again
It’ll be the happiest day
I will go to you like the first snow
I will go to you
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Queen

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