DREAMS

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Well, hello. I haven’t been writing for a while. No, it wasn’t awhile, it’s been years I guess. So you see, I've wiped all the old and dusty post before this. Let's just wiped it cleaned like my heart, as how it turns dark since.

So, I’ve been busy with many kinds of thing now. Getting graduated with flying colors, get a job of my dreams, get my dreams to further my study overseas come true, but not for true. Cause I still can’t just live way of life that I wanted though. I can't even get a life!

I had so many things that I wished hasn’t fulfilled yet. Live the life I wanted to be. Free and full with great memories create. I wanted to do what I love to do. No matter how hard the route will be, I’ll faced it, but with happiness and smile. I wanted to own a guitar of my own, plays the songs I love. Work doing things that I love to do, designing and be creative with full of arts. Travel, write, captured the moment. Dance, read and watching movies as my past time. And for god sake, I’m 21 and I had more live ahead, I wanted to live with loved and blissful, I don’t want growing old and die with full of disappointment and regrets by not doing what I wanted.

I want to travel alone face the world, I know it’s dangerous with a girl like me, but I doesn’t want the fear hold me down. I want to create memories full with joy. So I can passed the experience and bittersweet of memories to my children, so that I won't be a bored mother. I had a heart filled with arts, I know why it is like that ‘cause I’m different. Stop comparing me with others on how the choose their life to be, ‘cause we doesn’t own the same heart and soul. Just let me, let me do what I wanted for once in my life. I had such as small body but with big dreams and achievement that hasn’t fulfilled yet. I doesn’t want to live a life trapped and sorrow every day.

I'm sick of being choked down by with don'ts and can'ts. Let me have a life. Please.. As the day passed, it's like half of my heart has broken into dust by what I've been told that I can't do. For sake, I'M 21. And gods know how I've been holding it down, in my heart, my brain. I've shown you what I'm capable of, what my dreams are. But why, why did you still refused to understand.

Till when I can live the life I've been dreaming of?

Nad

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